coffee maker
a bottle of hazelnut syrup
underwater case for digicam
my own nanny
tiled floors
human blanket (subject for approval by friends)
........

when your in love, the tendency is to overlook the things that  if others is gonna look, they would ask   "why do you like him?  or  "what's so special about him?  as if  that  the person is not worthy of anyone's attention.

 oh well, love is so like that , mysterious and ever accepting
 and to some they would ask you of  how thick your helmet is,
 and that your boyfriend should be careful that when you hit your head and break the ever protective helmet, you might be awakened that you are with someone that is "yuk"  for others...  all those... well...   you know...

 well,  me?  umm,  ok...   yeah ...

getting closer to that "yuk" stage i hope,  

i wanna sing  " i wanna be free, lalalalala"

siggghhhh!!!!!!

so i  heard our song again and surprisingly it has no magic like it use to.
all i felt was sadness and feeling lonely like it was just yesterday.

 when i was still in gradeschool my dad would always take me and my sis to school and that was every morning.  He would carry both our heavy bags and and we would held both  his hands as we walked.
and off he goes to work after, he hates it when the flag ceremony started even before we hit the school gate because it means late and would kinda affect our grade.... that was my dad, my darling daddy....

So it was "father's day" and there was no one to greet for he has left us for good. In my heart I wish that he were still here with us, it doesn't matter if he lives far, at least I can still call or just have the thought that he is just there and within reach anytime, any moment.

And I remember this song that goes " if I ever have a line to heaven,  I swear, I'll be there"

the passing of my dad is forever bruised in my soul... 

I LOVE YOU , DADDY!

I had a wonderful three weeks vacation at my grandma's. It was the vacation I needed. I get to relax and it was kinda laid back, there was no computer and how I did not miss it!

Right now i am trying to regain my old self and have to clean the huge twister I made while I was unpacking my things.  I was loving my life back there and before it really swallow me, vacation has to end.

Next thing i need to do is to list my task for the day and stick to it...

All I need is somebody to motivate me, agh!

the heat is just unbearable, it is 37 degrees in celcius... no way...

i had two days off.... had great times with my girlfriends...up up and away at the far imelda falls... and the water is just so cold, perfect for city girls like us who always complain about the heat  and of course the traffic....

it was kind of an adventure, we had to climbed slippery rocks and tripped off many times over...and  I kinda regret  being there and whined about tired ankles and sore feet, and I was like "guys I'm not having fun climbing all these, I need Tarzan to help me out or even cheetah will do just fine, blah blah blah...

"hey s, savor every moment, there is nothing like this in the city" 
"yeah, she's right s, you'll be dreaming about this once it's over"
"maybe you need another cup of coffee to energise you...haha"

so i said " ok guys i'll be fine"

"hey s,  are you still ok? want me to look for Tarzan before we start heading up?" asked a.

" no a, i am really just fine"
well deep inside i  was not, i wanted to cry, but wasn't in a  baby mood.

"ok, s... let's sleep for a while, maybe we can reach the falls by tomorrow, haha"

i said again, " i am ok, thanks for your concern"

"hey s, what if we?"    so i said    " ok stop that, i  really am ok"  though i was not...

and another " hey s,"     so i said again     "i'm ok"

and another "hey s, would u like to...

so i said "SHUT UP" and gave them the scariest glared I could ever throw...and brought them shiver down their spine...   and everybody went quiet while I rejoiced inside, bwahahaha!!!

see how sweet my friends are???

So finally...there I was enjoying the falls with the loudest laugh.

to top it all, I had FUN... obviously...

i just thought  of my dad today... oh how i miss him...
it's been one and a half year since he left and until now I still have those
moments of tears falling out of the blue.

I woke up today with this message from Will......

"hey, s? I came across this line today and thought of you"...

It  takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone,,,
but it takes  a lifetime to  forget someone....LIKE YOU!!!

my friends keep asking for my blog address, but for the meantime i just want to be alone in my home... and enjoy the freedom of putting my thoughts in words and right at the moment i am enjoying my company.  myself is my best companion for a certain moment and this is my moment, my own world, just I and me...despite that, I still have limitations  on what to say knowing that sooner or later I'll be opening my doors to start welcoming familiar faces.

strange though... I realized... I enjoy walking around in my home naked and nobody would mind,

I just want to enjoy my own company, maybe it's time that I get introduced to "me" again...

So hello "s"...